Bless me father for I have sinned. I feel guilty for hating all those who have somehow hurt me and I’m feeling it won’t be easy to get rid of that feeling easily. My mother in law told me about that once but I don’t feel like paying attention to her comments. I definitely feel that she won’t ever walk in my shoes. I know it is a problem but I also know that it is not that bad. I don’t want to see them dead or hurt them back. The only think I’d love is to have them disappeared. Is that bad? I just wish I could forget everything they’ve done to me but having them in front of me, seeing them over and over is not helping me at all.
Did I incite that crappy lady to cheat us and make a shit out of my sister’s life? If that lady wanted to do it, it was her decision. Do I have to love her for doing so? I know that what goes around comes around and life took revenge of all she did to us: her husband changed her for another lady, her daughter was sexually abused by a grandpa and her son is completely into drugs. I’m telling you this not because it makes me happy, however, after experiencing such bad things, I'm still waiting for her to come to say “I’m sorry”.
And what do you think about the guy of the corner? He messed up with my life trying to screw my marriage up with his mean comments. Have I told that moron off for fooling his wife with a bitch? No, I haven't! But there you see him. Trying to rebuild his relationship, like a castle in the air. The only problem is that he will ever know what he did and his wife will ever know he can’t be trusted. That’s what I call a marriage of unknown people.
Yes Father, I know, I know that forgiveness is something that must be given to everybody as the Lord said long time ago but it is way too hard since the ones that have hurt me haven’t come to say sorry. If they only came to say so. What? Pride? I don’t think so. It seems you don’t even understand father. Yes, you’re right. I was the one who decided to get angry. I accept it. That’s why I said bless me for I have sinned. What do I do now? Pray? How many times? Ok. I will. I’ll do it and then I’ll be back to talk about my feelings again.
